Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Look at our education system and sincerely telll me how you feel towards it. This applies to people preparing for exams as well as all unlucky A-level students caught up with the nonsense called project work that they neglect or temporarily reject what it takes to function well.. Well,certain people are guilty of this during examination periods. I do not know whether or not to judge them as passionate or just plain stupid. Getting so caught up with preparing for work or studying so much so that they skip meals. No substanance therefore equals no self. The paranoia assoiciated with deadlines and examinations brings out the stupidity or rather the impractical side of people. Well, why cant people be a little more laid back, and take care of themselves first then worry? The brain needs food afterall.

Something's up with me today. Been sleeping the whole day instead of doing my secondary resources for PW.This is bad because in teh midst of finishing up my essay review for my utopian literature essay, here i am, online and writing this load of thrash. I guess its because my thoughts inadvertently drifted off to someone. This is really dumb because shes having her examinations and nothing can happen till after that. But it just leaves me wondering, does she feel the same way? I really hope she does but i guess i should'nt hold too high hopes as it may lead to a bigger fall and cause another personality change. Basically, everything is just a replacement for that void which she fills. She may not know that shes the one whom i did not forget this past year but i shall not deny myself anymore. I miss her but the pragmatic side of me being human is allowing me to put priorities first. Though i'd wish that i could be tehre for her and she with me. Then again, theres been talk of comin back again after her exams, so patience may just reveal the true light of the situation. In the meantime, i must not lose my focus and try my outmost best to do well and get promoted without doubt.

I hope things will work out. I just won a bet this morning, what does it fortell? Mindless superstition(thanks ar phael) or apparent realism? I hope its my mind wandering but heck, money made will just go into my savings for that wonderful new wheelset.

jonny`
+ 9/21/2004 06:59:00 pm