Monday, October 11, 2004

After seeing wad a certain brother of mine has went through, i really find that whats happening to me is actually peanuts. Come on man, will i actually have his determination and unwavering devotion? I sincerely hope that i have it in me but history is against me. I really care for you. But are you really the one for me? I dont really know.Let time unravel this mystery. Having sorted this out, and looking around, i doubt that it matters anymore, i have the best bunch of retards to keep me company, if i find the ideal person, Hurrah!! but if i don't, i won't be too sad, such contentment is just not for me to enjoy. Having read the sonnet 1 for one of my buddy's love, i cant help but admire his patience, his devotion. I'm so envious..

Wait for direction? nah, life is too short to waste waiting, life is a road and i want to keep going, and till i stumble across the river of love thats flowing, i'll press on. I've discovered what is meaningful to me, what excites me and keeps me going and so there is no reason to not move on. Having said this, i feel a great weight dissipating within me.Phew.

jonny`
+ 10/11/2004 01:21:00 am