Sunday, May 22, 2005

- i crave attention.. at least for now.. damn it.. i'm a fucking shallow bastard

-somehow, i feel lonely, lost and devoid of love..i'd want to feel loved and cared for, but that like something so selfish.. i cant even love myself enough to take respondsibility for my own life. i'm not doin what i shud do.

-wtf..i'm really weird..i dont even understand myself.. no wonder i've changed..

gotta freaking pull myself together..

on a lighter note, i really feel like bitching..over something really irrelevant and totally uncalled for and downright lame! Yea.. and i'm gonan do it..shows i'm everything that i just cursed.

well, dun understand y he think hes so cool and does things with that air.. liek when he was running a mere 1.6, was liek second and seemed like he was some hardcore professional.. plus that, pls dun carry it that way, yucks.

teh best fella ever, made plans, seemed so set on it onli to cancel out at the last min..ahahhaa.. typical of the race..happened so many times.. maybe thats y its surprising that goin out is a milestone for you.. ahaha.. some brotherhood man.. yur self proclaimed shit is really nothin but yur own wishful thinking. while i dont make generalisations, at least not too often, some things just leave me prejudiced..

i wanna go cycle, i wanna relive the feeling of running that damn race again. i wanna have my whole system shut down..whats with these really disgusting mood swings? fucking freaking me out. man.. i really oughtta get a real private blog and keep teh add to myself so that i dun needa worry abt anyone seeing my weaknesses.. maybe i shud do that.. ahaha.. for my eyes onli..wth..retardedness maximus.

i'd better go sleep.

jonny`
+ 5/22/2005 01:19:00 am